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     Shows? Really? Personally I don't want to be in any shows. That's not what I love about art. Sure I'll go to a show, and admire the art. I don't want to be admired, I don't want my art to be seen really. I do art for me, and I want to pursue it in any way I possibly can. I would love to teach it, or maybe even sell art in an auction house, but I would still do my own art. Not to be in any shows, or to be seen by people. I do it for me. Cause I enjoy it. It's what makes me happy, knowing that all I need is a medium I love, and a hand position to draw, and I'll get to work. To accomplish something I set out to do. Not something for shows.
     If I had a choice to enter my work in any shows it would be none, but I do feel very strongly about some of my pieces though. I like my first collage, my second one is ok. I like my blasphemy piece, and my first hand, and my finger still life. I have a bunch of photography pieces that I like. To me I have accomplished a lot so far. Not with hand concentrations, but with pieces that I like, and feel strongly about.
     I have so many frustrations that are rushing through my head every day that keep me from working on my art. Whether I have work that day, study for a test, work on homework, trying to remember when some bills need to be paid by, and what art related things need to be done. I am very anxious about just being at home when I could be out doing something like borrowing a camera, and taking pictures, sitting outside drawing in my sketchbook, or even reading a good book.
     When I am on my laptop at home I am always googling new artists, and seeing what they have created out there. Looking to reignite my brain to wake it up in order to have the ideas flow again. Like they used to. I have plenty written down. I just don't know which ones I am able to do at the moment.
     I don't think my work is better than anyone else's. Every person's artwork is unique in it's own way. Everybody has something they can do, and are passionate about. Some people have natural talent, and some can do art really well, but have to work at it. Doesn't mean they are any worse than someone who is naturally talented.

Another free blog...@_@

     As the popular demand for free blogs continue by Mrs. Martin I shall take it upon my self to inform you that I do not know what to blog about this week really. Most likely a continuation of what I'm working on now, and maybe something else. My dream for a hand with a missing thumb continues. It burns deep in my non existent soul. 

     My current ideas for my four pieces this month are....

         1. A hand with lacerations on the palm that run along the metacarpals in watercolor.

         2. A still life of fingers done in charcoal, and conte. 

         3. A series of hand drawn on small squares of watercolor paper done in pen, and ink (or sharpie) with 

               each having a different background color. 

         4. A hand with a missing thumb. (hopefully might change that if something better comes to mind).

   

      Having to go to work less does help I guess, but doesn't help my budget, but I manage (thanks to mom), and working on art at home on days that I don't have to work also helps my sleep schedule, but one thing I'm missing is my one inspiration. My big idea that uses what I've learned, how I feel, and my big idea, and incorporating it into a hand for my concentration. 

 

     I come up with plenty of concepts, and ideas of how I could make it happen. I just can't seem to find that one that will make me go WOAH!!! That's what I'm waiting for. I guess I will just have to keep doing more works of hands in many ways till I find that big inspiration, and what comes with it. I anticipating it to come through my bedroom door at 3 am, and smack me in the face, and just throw me out the window. 

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    A free choice blog that isn't what inspires you this week....what is this mess?! I have been working on my breadth, and concentration pieces when I can. I'm going to start a third one within the next two days. Not to mention I'm no longer doing breadth, and I'm just sticking to do nothing, but hands for the rest of the semester, it'll be a crap next few months, but I'll manage somehow. My next hand is going to be a hand with lacerations. Hoping to do it in watercolor. Not sure if I wanna do pen, and ink with it though. I think it'll be more a a challenge if I did it without. I think my most trouble with the hand I am working on now is just proportions, and thumbs. I think quite a few of my pieces will be thumbless. Not to mention in awkward poses.
      I did see something interesting yesterday though....a war veteran who decided to become a drag queen. He was missing 4 fingers total. 2 from each hand, and had a a brilliant black silk wrapping around his arm. Nails bright pink, with a star tattoo. I studied much of the hand as I could because I saw this brilliant performer, on t.v. It reminded me of a movie called soldier's girl. Now thinking about this movie, the musculature of the hand that the performer suggested something for me to draw, to understand, and find the story behind it.
     I look at hands, and study every aspect I can on the skin. The wrinkles, scars, tears, cuts, bruises, and whatever I can find in a hand. I find what can on every hand I look at. I find what I know about to hand, then look for the more challenging stuff. Like a oddly shaped nails, broken bones, or a missing chunk of skin.