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    A free choice blog that isn't what inspires you this week....what is this mess?! I have been working on my breadth, and concentration pieces when I can. I'm going to start a third one within the next two days. Not to mention I'm no longer doing breadth, and I'm just sticking to do nothing, but hands for the rest of the semester, it'll be a crap next few months, but I'll manage somehow. My next hand is going to be a hand with lacerations. Hoping to do it in watercolor. Not sure if I wanna do pen, and ink with it though. I think it'll be more a a challenge if I did it without. I think my most trouble with the hand I am working on now is just proportions, and thumbs. I think quite a few of my pieces will be thumbless. Not to mention in awkward poses.
      I did see something interesting yesterday though....a war veteran who decided to become a drag queen. He was missing 4 fingers total. 2 from each hand, and had a a brilliant black silk wrapping around his arm. Nails bright pink, with a star tattoo. I studied much of the hand as I could because I saw this brilliant performer, on t.v. It reminded me of a movie called soldier's girl. Now thinking about this movie, the musculature of the hand that the performer suggested something for me to draw, to understand, and find the story behind it.
     I look at hands, and study every aspect I can on the skin. The wrinkles, scars, tears, cuts, bruises, and whatever I can find in a hand. I find what can on every hand I look at. I find what I know about to hand, then look for the more challenging stuff. Like a oddly shaped nails, broken bones, or a missing chunk of skin.

Controversy? More like that shark is gonna be on my ceiling with a light above it! HELLO NEW CEILING LIGHT!!!

    That fountain is too funny. I mean it looks like a urinal. I mean come on really? That's too hilarious. To think that's been fought over is just showing how people over analyze someone's idea. That shark is so awesome. I want that with a light above it, on my ceiling, and that light better be a black light. I mean it would make me room look so PIMPIN'!!! Plus it's a shark.
      If someone will really criticize that piece of work then they can just get over, and find something better to do with their time. Ya know time. That thingy they seem to have too much of if they find this controversial. People need to find something useful, or more hilarious to do with their time. xD
     I mean it's pointless. Hey if it's so controversial, and people don't want a big deal made out of it then why make a big deal out of it? SERIOUSLY?! It's awesome, and plus when are you ever gonna see a a shark so awesome as that besides an aquarium. All know is get me that price tag. I'll be all over that!!

2nd Semester Portfolio. (Throw me under the bus now!)

     I know that my work isn't where some people would have theirs, but I'm working on it though. I know my biggest challenge will be getting my concentration up, and going. I am rather excited about it though. Since I switched my concentration I have zero concentration, and 14 breadth pieces. I'm going to give it my best try to get my concentration up, and just really focus on my concentration, and work on it whenever I possibly can to complete 12 pieces.
      Working on my past concentrations did give me some great memories with Nena Kolb(my ex-facebook official wife). Her making me look at random stuff on fail blog, and her always taking videos of me. I know that what I need to work on is just keeping up with what I need to do in portfolio, working 4-6 days a week, not getting home from work till almost 11pm, getting sleep, helping with my nephew when I can, and keeping up with my other school work. It's a challenge, but I'm sticking with what I got. I'm really gonna give it my all. Just throw myself at my art (not literally unless if necessary).
     I have learned that I definitely need structure with my art, and life. Lets just say it's very messy, and chaotic, but very routine. The chaos just pours on me in every way artistically, work wise, school, home, and many other ways. One way Ms. Martin could push me is to make sure I'm working on something for this class every day for portfolio. NEEDED TO BE MENTIONED!! (Only slightly mentioned.)

Last blog of the semester..I have tears*cough cough*

    Things I would have done differently this semester....

1. I would have taken more time to sketch out more ideas, and done more photography.

2. Have a different layout of symbols that describe me so I could've had more pieces to use for concentration portfolio cause I enjoyed breadth portfolio too much. 

3. I wish I had taken more time from other things, and used that time to work on projects.

4. Have more of an understanding that matte fixative is evil.

5. Had more time to explore other mediums.

     Goals for next semester....

1. Continuing doing breadth pieces on the side.

2. Invest in a new digital camera.

3. Practice drawing of all types.

4. Find new ways to create, an environment for photography work for my new concentration.

5. Practice more with new mediums. 

     Pieces that I think are strong....

1. My blasphemy piece is I feel is strong because I feel that it was simplistic yet it said a lot, and I got to explore with splattering watercolors which is something I never have thought of until it popped into my head for that specific project.

2. I feel my collage is strong cause it could be used as a breadth, and a concentration piece. Having a piece so versatile for portfolio makes me feel like I should explore other mediums out there. Mediums I have never heard of, research it, and works of art that use that medium. 

3. I think my project I did in colored pencil is very good as well, but needs to be fixed. It shows the duality we all have in us, but represents me more cause they both share my own symbol.

4. My arthurian symbol piece I feel is strong because it's macro, and it saved the whole project because I usually don't do macro style drawings.

5. My photo of two of my friends at the canton waterfall I feel is strong because behind every photo there is a story as with a lot of other art today. I see it as when someone looks at that photo they know I know the story, but they only get a glimpse of what the story is. 

6. The sunset picture is also strong because to me I have never seen something that beautiful in a way that touched my heart. That picture represents how I want the to be seen every day, and that beauty can be found anywhere.

7. My pictures of the cemetery I feel are strong because they have a sense of death, but when I took them  seeing all the woodland creatures I saw life giving their respects to the dead.

     Those are the pieces that I feel are strong to me, in eyes, in my perspective. 

Inspired by a cAt!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

    This week was a weird one to say. I have found my inspiration this week from 2nd family comprised of my amazing friends in Pekin. To say the least being around them, and staying a for a weekend in Pekin has been inspiring because I couldn't imagine a better way to spend a weekend. Friday nights art simply going out dancing at Stone with my best friend, and her Joshua. Then being with our other 3 friends Dakota, Kari, and Cody. As well as seeing some of my amazing friends who are soon to be leaving, or have already left. Just having fun, and relaxing. Doing some amazing line dances, and just plain fun dancing. Such a good time with friends who you are close to, and have an interesting connection to in a psychological way. Just being around them on the weekends makes my world brighter, or talking to one of them on the phone, and getting constant texts from them make my life seem more important. 

    What happens after Stone is the drive back, or going to stay the night someplace. Just our little family not wanting to break up, and feel that loneliness that happens when you see a family member leave, and not know when you will see them next. I love my 2nd family. They are always there, and seeing some of the stupid crap some of them do inspires me, or just the driving around, and seeing what happens, and letting it be. I love seeing them. I wish I could see all of them everyday, but I guess I can settle for a weekend. I love being with them, and knowing that I can be free, and self expressive. I don't feel like I need to be contained when I'm with them. Even though sometimes when I get mad at the boys for doing something stupid like going onto a roof, and the jumping off, and one of them hit the gutter, and decide to be complete morons. I love them nonetheless. That is what inspires me this week.

Artist inspiration

    I find Janet O'Neal to be inspiring. I hope to be able to do some of the mixed media work she does someday. She is so inspiring to me in many ways. Her work is not just inspiring, but interesting in a way that I can't explain. Her sculptures are are so innovative, and have such depth to her work. When I see a piece of her work I analyze how it makes me feel, and what it inspires me to do. Her 2D mixed media makes me feel as if I can relate to her in some way, and makes me happy knowing that she can put this kind of work out there, and make what she thinks real in an artistic way. She has a way of catching your eye from a different view. You don't just look at it, an know what it is. You look at it, know what it is, and then analyze it, and appreciate the piece as it is. Her work absorbs me, and makes me feel just full of ideas, and puts me in a phase of content. She has such a variety, and movement in a different way that you don't see anymore.
    Janet O' Neal is inspiring in the way of looking at a piece of art, and wanting to know every aspect of it. One of her sculptures has me so captivated, and just flabbergasted, and just confused. A mystery I want to solve dreadfully. A puzzle I will hopefully someday solve.

 Something else that inspires me....

Sense of the primate @_@

   
Something that has inspired my over the years is animals. I feel that by observing their behaviors, and actions that I can create something to mimic their attitudes. Either by making it soft, spicy, or something that represents the behavior that I noticed while observing an animal. Monkey, apes, and chimps all have inspired me by their unpredictable behavior. Jand Goodall was one of my inspiration was when I observed animal behaviors in zoos, park, T.V., and online. I see that animals can mimic our behaviors as well. By being coy, shy, jealous, angry, murderous, vindictive, hateful, kind, open, loving, and willingness to follow what they believe. Animals have their instincts intact, and use it every day. We however, don't have that luck. We use more logic, and reasoning. True not all of us use it, but it's there for us to fall back on.
    Animals have a strong sense of self. They know who they are, they don't care who knows in their family, pack, group, flock, etc. Yet we are confused in many ways as in terms of sense of self with personality, sexual orientation, and trying to impress others to be accepted. Animal have this problem as well, but not to such a degree as humans due. Having that knowledge about them inspires me to be free. To not be afraid, and to not care about what others want to use me for. We are who we are. No doubt. It's all about how we get to the point where we are most happy in our lives with who we are. I feel art is the same. We may not know what our destination art wise will be, but we go through the journey to get there. We will eventually get to the point where we are happy with our art. We will have more than one of these moments in our lives when it comes to art. We maybe hateful toward one piece, but loving another piece we have created.